I forgot why I was alive I'm nothing now except afraid to die
But why do I live if life has nothing else to give but fear
Is the end near?
Afraid to live afraid to die
Just tell me what to do talking heads and I will do it-
Crazy as fuck yes I will pursue it
Why me its grimy why me bad timing why me its crime gee
Why me I'm blind why me I'm finding everything combining inside of me
Eveything is rhyming with bad words everything I feel goes unheard or felt
feel like I'm gonna melt down and go down the drain
round and round I'm afraid of whats down there-
Will they strap me to a chair? I don't care anymore- yeah muthafuckas lets go to war---
Everything is blinding me
Everything bad is finding me down
Everything is winding me up
Everything is filling my cup with fire
Everything wants to destroy my desire to go forward
Sit there forever and die and only say these 4 words
I am not alive
I am not alive
I am not alive
I am not alive
I forgot why I was alive I'm nothing now except afraid to die
But why do I live if life has nothing else to give but fear
Is the end near?
he sighed and said I died inside
she sighed and said I'm already dead
He laughed and said I won't wear the mask
She laughed and said dead people can't complete these tasks
All of a sudden all these corrupt muthafuckas with bleached white teeth and cool hair
They care about me now nice its not a dream its a nightmare
One morning I woke up and I was dead
Not alive is what it said inside my broken head
Stood up and fell down because now I lay upon the ground ground
Grind me up and bury me with smoke if I'm good enough I'll make one of those crooked muthafuckas choke choke choke
I forgot why I was alive I'm nothing now except afraid to die
But why do I live if life has nothing else to give but fear
Is the end near?
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